Ron's Insights 2013

The Measure of Commitment
6/18/2013 2:35:54 PM by: Ron Susek

The Measure of Commitment 

 

July 14, 1861

Camp Clark, Washington 

  

My very dear Sarah:
The indications are very strong that we shall move in a few days-perhaps tomorrow. Lest I should not be able to write again, I feel impelled to write a few lines that may fall under your eye when I shall be no more . . .


I have no misgivings about, or lack of confidence in the cause in which I am engaged, and my courage does not halt or falter. I know how strongly American Civilization now leans on the triumph of the Government and how great a debt we owe to those who went before us through the blood and sufferings of the Revolution. And I am willing-perfectly willing-to lay down all my joys in this life, to help maintain this Government, and to pay that debt . . .

Sarah my love for you is deathless, it seems to bind me with mighty cables that nothing but Omnipotence could break; and yet my love of Country comes over me like a strong wind and bears me unresistibly on with all these chains to the battle field.


The memories of the blissful moments I have spent with you come creeping over me, and I feel most gratified to God and to you that I have enjoyed them for so long. And hard it is for me to give them up and burn to ashes the hopes of future years, when, God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our sons grown up to honorable manhood, around us. I have, I know, but few and small claims upon Divine Providence, but something whispers to me-perhaps it is the wafted prayer of my little Edgar, that I shall return to my loved ones unharmed. If I do not my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, and when my last breath escapes me on the battle field, it will whisper your name. Forgive my many faults and the many pains I have caused you. How thoughtless and foolish I have often times been! How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness . . .

But, O Sarah! If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the gladdest days and in the darkest nights . . . always, always, and if there be a soft breeze upon your cheek, it shall be my breath, as the cool air fans your throbbing temple, it shall be my spirit passing by. Sarah do not mourn me dead; think I am gone and wait for thee, for we shall meet again . . . 

  

Sullivan Ballou was killed a week later at the first Battle of Bull Run, July 21, 1861.


Previous Posts

Creation and Christmas
12/30/2013 9:45:40 AM  by: Ron Susek

Silent Night, Holy War
12/23/2013 9:29:09 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Seasons are Changing
12/17/2013 6:57:57 AM  by: Ron Susek

Big Rocks First
12/10/2013 7:05:27 AM  by: Ron Susek

Thanksgiving: A Key to Fulfillment
12/2/2013 9:36:00 AM  by: Ron Susek

Who Said Faith is Easy?
11/26/2013 9:14:58 AM  by: Ron Susek

Guard Your Heart (Part #5)
11/18/2013 10:56:45 AM  by: Ron Susek

Guard Your Heart (part #4)
11/12/2013 12:00:01 AM  by: R

Guard Your Heart Part #3
11/5/2013 6:27:03 AM  by: Ron Susek

Guard Your Heart (Part #2 A Pick and a Path
10/30/2013 12:00:01 AM  by: Ron Susek

Guard your Heart (part1)
10/22/2013 8:27:36 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Trampler
10/15/2013 8:10:16 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Secret to Great Achievement by Ron Susek Gold
10/7/2013 4:13:50 PM  by: Ron Susek

FaithWalk: Responding to God
9/30/2013 5:40:26 PM  by: Ron Susek

Faithwalk: Knowing God
9/23/2013 9:16:06 AM  by: Ron Susek

FaithWalk: Learning About God
9/17/2013 6:15:55 PM  by: Ron Susek

Why Satan Wants You Back
9/10/2013 6:11:05 AM  by: Ron Susek

Simple Faith
9/3/2013 4:42:21 AM  by: Ron Susek

God's Footprints
8/26/2013 6:20:37 AM  by: Ron Susek

Don't Blame Jesus for War
8/19/2013 10:51:30 AM  by: Ron Susek

Questions of a Fool
8/13/2013 9:23:24 AM  by: Ron Susek

Right Place, Riht Time
8/6/2013 9:55:04 AM  by: Ron Susek

Slay Familiarity Now
7/31/2013 5:30:33 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Wise Use of Freedom
7/24/2013 5:37:11 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Peril of Impatience
7/15/2013 1:28:56 PM  by: Ron Susek

America's Flag: Flying Belos Half Staff
7/9/2013 7:08:08 AM  by: Ron Susek

Defeating this Snarly World
7/2/2013 8:33:39 AM  by: Ron Susek

Jesus Confronts Dale Carnegie
6/26/2013 12:00:01 AM  by: Ron Susek

The Measure of Commitment
6/18/2013 2:35:54 PM  by: Ron Susek

The One Who Binds the Storm
6/10/2013 11:17:33 AM  by: Ron Susek

Praying with an Angry Heart
5/28/2013 6:28:52 AM  by: Ron Susek

I'm Here, I'm Free Now!
5/21/2013 6:06:02 AM  by: Ron Susek

God's Answer to Worry
5/6/2013 10:35:21 AM  by: Ron Susek

Crucified with Christ Part #3: Judas
4/23/2013 6:28:31 AM  by: Ron Susek

Crucified with Christ part #2: Peter
4/23/2013 6:25:36 AM  by: Ron Susek

Crucified with Christ Part #1: The Pharisees
4/23/2013 6:17:28 AM  by: Ron Susek